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20 June 2008

onward!

I'm currently in the process of selling most of my furniture via Craigslist. I'm hoping this will make for an easier (lighter!) move, and give me some breathing room for new design ideas. Even though I am moving to an apartment in the same city, I am looking at the move as a fresh start.

My present apartment has an unbeatable view and central location, but the beige cement walls often feel oppressive. It may sound crazy, but I really believe that living in a high rise has got to have some kind of squishing effect on the psyche. A three-storey walk-up will be a welcome change.

I'm also looking forward to a fresh start after these relatively isolated 2 years of grad school. Sometimes I think the main reason I chose to do my masters was as an exercise in self-discipline — a way to force myself to focus. Now I'm getting that restless feeling we all get when we feel we've gotten the gist of the lesson, and it's time to move on.

So I've been idealizing the move as this big turning point, when my life will suddenly become exciting again.

Each step in life has its own perks and pitfalls, I suppose. This pros now are the incredibly flexible schedule, and self-indulgent writing sessions. The main con would be the isolation this kind of writing necessitates.

So, inspired by a comment I've received on this blog, I am going to go with the flow and write short, frequent entries about my day-to-day progress, rather than waiting until something "big" happens to blog about it. If I'm honest with myself, and with you, I will write what I feel and what I truly believe. Then this blog can change as my life actually does.

I think reading and writing SO much about blogging FOR my thesis has made me feel a little zany and, I think, has had a negative effect on this blog. Studying aspects such as privacy and readership has made me extra cautious about what kind of info I share, especially (to be brutally honest) given the amount of strange people I have met, and who might very well read this blog. But to be a great writer, you have to take risks. It feels like a risk for me to keep writing here, and sharing myself when I feel the compulsion to shy away.

So I am going to suck it up, and keep writing.

2 comments:

Jess said...

I'm looking forward to reading it - your blog and your thesis! I'll try not to stalk you too openly. (Har har)

Dallas said...

Yes! My thesis will now have 3 readers: you and my parents. that is all.